Natalia

I am Natalia Indrawati Tirtodjojo. Everyone usually call me Natalia. I was born on December 31^st, 1994 in Jember, East Java, Indonesia, so now I am twenty one years old. I am the last child in my family. I have a super mom and dad, also two siblings, one the oldest sister and one older brother. Now, I am studying International Business Administration in Rajamangala University of Technology Thanyaburi Thailand for one year.

Photo in Faculty of Business Administration of RMUTT Thailand

            In many times in my life, I always look myself in negative side. I mean, I always look my weakness in terms of my performance and abilities. My performance is just so so. I am thin and tall. I have long straight black hair. My face is not beautiful as other girls. Most of the time when I look other girls who are very beautiful and have ideal bodies, I feel like I am nothing if I contrast myself to them. Then, I also have so many disabilities. I can’t sing well like other people, I can’t dance at all, and I can’t play any musical instruments. Now, I also can’t bring heavy things because I have a problem with my muscle since I am in Thailand.

            However, since I met with Mrs. Shannel who is the best psychologist that I ever met, on October 10^th, 2016, I can look myself in positive side. I told her about my stories and experiences. She listened to me and asked some questions. At the last conversation, there was one question from her to me. It was what abilities that I have. I answered her that I didn’t know about myself, also my abilities because I think that I have so many weakness. Then, she told me that I was wrong. She said that every people have their own abilities and weakness that are different, but it will make them become unique. After she knew my stories, she told me that I have so many abilities that I have to be grateful, such as I can motivate myself when I am desperate, I can make a good decision when I have a problem, I am brave because I take a decision to study in Thailand which is very far from my hometown, I am smart and diligent because I can get scholarship for studying in Rajamangala University of Technology Thailand for one year, and I am a struggle girl who is never give up when I get many challenges to achieve my goal. 

Photo with Mrs. Shannel 

As a result, now I can look myself in a right way. I have already realized about my abilities and weakness. Like what Mrs. Shannel ever told, that I can’t contrast myself to others since everyone have different abilities and weakness. Everyone should be grateful for anything that they have. So, now I will always be grateful and proud for all abilities and weakness that I have. I also will not contrast myself again to other people. I will only remember what Mrs. Shannel said, “Everyone is unique”. Thank you so much to her that has already opened my mind so that I can describe myself well.